Mum Guilt

Now, this probably sounds a bit silly but I'm not ashamed to admit that I am feeling the mum guilt for not taking my kids to a pumpkin-picking farm because my hometown is crap unless you have a car but I wanted them to experience it and I just wanted a nice photo to be honest. I guess social media plays a part in that, seeing all these happy families at these places and then you look at your kids and overthink they are missing out, you feel awful and enter into the mum guilt rabbit hole. Someone actually messaged me on Instagram and pretty much said to look back on the small things in my childhood, the simple things of carving a 99p pumpkin and playing in the garden, the FREE simple little things are what matter the most and its true isn't it but our brains like to scroll through social media and like to compare. 

I feel guilty about absolutely everything as a mum, if I forget to buy my daughter apple juice I have a meltdown internally, how could I forget that, I'm meant to be the to-do list, I'm meant to be superwoman, Sharon never forgets the apple juice and the internal monologue goes on so its something I need to work on. 

But I have booked a firework display, breakfast with Santa again and a Christmas event at a farm so I guess that makes up for it right. 

The closest we got to a pumpkin farm this year was this display in Morrisons but we move and I cannot wait to celebrate Halloween and Christmas. 

Emmy. x